You are allowed to struggle.
You are allowed to scream.
You are allowed to cry.
But you are never allowed to give up.
Rough Diamonds
I write a bunch of stuff – sometimes the content is useful, sometimes not so much.
In order to process my spiritual and psychological insights I like to create some sort of poetry from time to time. Sometimes it’s just a few words, sometimes it’s a letter and sometimes it’s a whole story.
‘Rough Diamonds’ describes the current state of these snippets of text.
Communicate
Communicate with yourself. And then you will understand everything better.
Sunday Thoughts
Lead weights are pulling my limbs down to the core.
Everything falls into place.
Gravity is contracting me softly.
My body is merging with the ground.
Unable to move, but truly alive I become one.
Thank You Letter To Life
Dear Life,
thank you for guiding me through my existence. I’m grateful for your patient mentoring and your steady navigation. Thank you for allowing me to enjoy the great pleasures of being human. I sincerely appreciate the freedom you provide me to discover my personal direction.
Every day you are giving me the opportunity to open my eyes and make the most of my day. Thank you for invigorating me with positive energy and showing me the beauty of nature. Thank you for every sunrise and every sunset and all the time in between. You remind me that everything is temporary – the darkest and the brightest moments.
I especially appreciate the chance you provide me to connect with other human beings. Thank you life for introducing me to people, who enrich my existence. People, who shine like the sun and warm my heart like a campfire on an August night.
Thank you for teaching me so much – day after day. Your are guiding me so patiently through all the windy roads. With the stones you place in my way you enhance my strength. Every challenge helps me to grow. Every obstacle is invaluable in the process of learning.
Dear Life, thank you so much for your flexibility and your endless generousity. Thank you for making me the human I am now. I’m looking forward for more great experiences with you as a teacher in 2018.
Sincerely Yours,
Random Human Being
Reminders
Never miss an opportunity to grow.
Always absorb information, listen carefully and learn.
Failure is painful, but it is crucial for your success.
You never stop growing as long as you don’t resign.
Days of Clarity
It’s just one of those days. It’s one of those days when the fog is lifting and you can finally breathe again.
It’s one of those days when you see the truth behind your contradictions. It’s one of those days when you acknowledge your strengths and you accept your weaknesses.
It’s one of those days when the whole world is sorted. You finally arrive in the presence. You finally get to feel yourself again. You feel like life is right in front of you. You just have to grab it. Nothing can stop you anymore.
It’s one of those days when you are endlessly happy. This feeling of joy warms your chest. You are as happy as a child awaiting christmas or its birthday party.
It’s one of those days when the mosaic of your experiences, the snippets of your memories, the fragments of your emotions create one picture. Every failure makes sense, because every stumble led you in the right direction – where you are now. Your inner judge stops judging your frailties.
It’s just one of those days of relief – when anxiety yields security and monochrome turns multi-coloured.
In these moments of clarity you breathe in the energy of the universe. Try to conserve it in your emotional memory as an island of peace. The next time when you feel down, when the fog of self-doubts is clouding your clear sight again, you can come back to this peaceful gem in your chest.
Love life <3
Confusion Coma
My perfectionism disables my productivity – the fear of failure makes me powerless. Paralyzed I scrape around – unable to get started.
When decision making becomes a torture every idea turns into a burden.
When opportunities become obstacles, openness closes doors.I don’t see the wood for all the trees, because my senses are occupied by self-consciousness.
There is no way forward – as long as I don’t “make way”. Unfortunately nobody can help me with this.
Deep inside of me I know that I have to push through. Deep inside of me there is wisdom beyond that pain. The pain that is part of humanization. The pain that demands to be felt.
But from time to time and often enough I ask myself: Why? Why do I ask all these questions without answers?
Saying Yes
Yes, I’m struggling.
Yes, I’m lonely at times.
Yes, I don’t know, where I’m going.
But at least I’m free.
Collective Burnout
Red eyes – blinded.
Faces like wax.
Lips pressed to a pale line enclosing fears.
Back bended dragging a heritage.
Distracted by diversion we are sliding into non-existence.
Soul-destroying lovelessness is soaking up our energy.
Iced-hearted we are burning out – collectively.
Dissolution
Sometimes I feel like I’m not experiencing the world, but I’m absorbing it. It feels like all the external influences are dissolving my body and my whole existence into nothingness.