There is something moving inward – and outwardly.
The divine intervention.
I’m the vessel, the means of transformation.
More than anything I’m here to respond.
I’m not in charge. I do not lead. I am the direction.
On the verge, I am that tool.
I am the armour. There is no need to arm myself.
From The Streams of (Un)Consciousness
There is so much to say. My synapses are numbed.
Still, I feel the pressure to share.
I want to document, because I can’t know what I’m documenting right here.
I’m trying to hold on to it. Or is it holding on to me? I’m not sure.
What I know for sure is that life is ever changing. And more and more I come to witness my own change. And more and more I accept it. I accept myself in not-knowing and in ever-transforming.
Slowly I’m re-establishing a connection with myself and with the world – mainly by connecting with myself.
I’m coming to understand that I can’t know. Do I find pleasure in not knowing?
Surely not!
What I’ve been coming to terms with is the fact that my mind has a very limited capacity. It knows what it knows and it calls it experience.
But what is experience really?
It is diving into the new of every moment.
Accordingly to cambridge dictionary it’s the process of getting knowledge or skill from doing, seeing or feeling.
So how do we get life experience?
Yes, by doing, seeing and feeling life. Not by gathering information.
Unfortunately this is all that our mind does. It gathers information to a point that makes life unrecognizable.
Life becomes a stencil of what we “know”.
As long as our lives are dictated by mind, this is the only lens we ever see through.
The joke is that we can not know life! Life doesn’t know itself, because it’s a force! It is energy!
There is nothing to know about life, because life energy is ever changing.
And we are that change. We are that life.
Nothing in life is ever as it seems. Because everything in life is constantly moving. Think about it a little longer then 3 seconds! We created concepts and stories that we call culture nowadays.
We create value but our values are rocksolid!
We are stonewalling ourselves, because we are denying the constant flow. The constant uncertainty that is the current of our life.
People, it’s time to wake up!
Shake it loose. Forget what you have learnt. Drop your expectations and let life unfold.
Who Are You Without Your Mistakes?
Who are you without your mistakes? This is a question I kept pondering for a while now – probably for years.
Are you you? Without mistakes?
Are you fulfilling your “dharma” – without mistakes?
“In ‘doing’, there are always mistakes.”
This is what Swami Rakesh, my philosophy teacher at the 200 hours yoga teacher training I have just finished told me in a private consultation.
This implies: If we are not making any mistakes, are we doing?
I repeat, because it is so fundamental: Who are you without your mistakes?
You might walk, but do you walk in your own shoes?
You might do, but do you do you?
Or are you avoiding the thing you want to do, because you are avoiding mistakes?
Another perspective:
Do you learn without mistakes?
Of course not!
Perfection is not the path. It can’t be…. Why? Because we are here to learn.
The path is paved with mistakes. Detours. Ups and downs.
This is how we see.
This is how we dis-cover the things that are being hidden from us.
How will you be able to see the whole picture if you only look at what you want to see?
How do you feel fully if you avoid feeling the whole spectrum?
How do you find comfort in this life if you only walk on the bright side?
This is not it!
I know you know it!
Darkness is an aspect of the light. Without dark, there is no light.
This is more fundamental to understand than I could ever imagine… And yet, I’m scratching the surface…..
Blank Slate
I’m diving deep and yet I’m scratching the surface.
I’m travelling far and yet I’m going nowhere at all.
I’m letting go and yet I’m receiving more than I can take in.
I’m here and yet I’m eternal.
What Are You Holding on to?
What are you holding on to?
Life moves with lightning speed.
By clinging to the past, you are holding your future hostage.
My Life Changed…
My life changed…
when I allowed lightness.
when I let myself harvest the fruits.
when I acknowledged my work.
when I appreciated my own journey. Every step of it.
For a long time something was missing in my life and I could not grasp what it was.
Until I found it within myself. This female role model that puts me at ease.
See Clearly
See your blocks. Face them.
Explore your emotions. Live them.
Appreciate your experience. Take it in.Be proud of who you are. No matter what.
What’s the worst that can happen?
You might start living your life.
Let it be Hard
“I want it to be easy!” – I’m punching my pillow.
“Let it be hard!” – An internal voice releases my vigor.
Recently I’ve made some tough decisions. And for a moment I fell for the panic, the doubt and the despair…
Until I remembered:
In order to live an exceptional life we get to make exceptional decisions. Decisions no one has ever made before, because no one has ever walked in our shoes…
Decisions that move our life path away from the “crowd”.
It is tough. It brings up fears of rejection, of loss or of poverty.
But you know what?
It’s part of the game!
This is what unleashes the wild self within!
This is what strengthens our resolve!
I want to encourage you:
DO the step you are so scared of but you kept pondering for years.
MOVE where destiny is calling you.
YOU know it. No one else.
No fortune teller can tell you what to do.
Only you are in charge.
And this is not a top-to-bottom advice of some sort.
I encourage myself too with a livin’ prayer. 😉
It’s easy to talk about it.
It is freakin’ hard to WALK it!!
The path no one has walked before.
Your path.
It’s easy to learn a lot of things but actually putting them into action: this is the hard part! Yes. It is hard and it is beautiful.
It’s, without a doubt, the most satisfying thing in the world.
Focus
Focus.
Dive deeper.
Quench the thirst.
Extract the essence.
Grow Like Moss
Grow like moss.
Absorb the nutrients.
Receive what is being fed.